RIP My Ps4

Charles Zinn
4 min readNov 7, 2021

My friends, today might be the day that my Ps4 has finally come to an end. Since 2015, my Ps4 has served me well. I put hundreds of hours into it with dozens of different games.

Persona 5, Kingdom Hearts 1.5 + 2.5, Shadow of Mordor, Just Cause 4, Metal Gear Solid 5: Phantom Pain. There really is no end to how many games I have put into it.

But, about a week ago, I turned on my Ps4 with the intention to continue to play Persona 5 (of course, I was about 70 hours into the game). But, my Ps4 immediately booted up on safe mode, and there was one message that popped up.

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“Cannot start up Ps4.”

I was shocked, in fact, scared. I had about 70 hours in Persona 5, and about 40 hours in Kingdom Hearts 2. Not to mention the other games that I had dozens of hours in. I had plans to 100% KH 2, a game that I have been working on since 2017. I wanted to finish Person 5 — the game that I have been working on for the past year.

But, I couldn’t give up — not just yet. I called Sony, and after running through some diagnostics, I was presented with a solution: I could factory reset the Ps4, which could save it. But, there is a cost. I would lose all of my data.

All of it. That is about a few hundred hours of gameplay.

I was shocked — I didn’t know what to think. Of course, the data would have been saved if I had PS Plus, since it would have been saved in the Cloud. But, I didn’t know that before hand. I had a terabyte drive, and I thought all my data would have been saved on that.

Turns out, I was wrong. The terabyte drive only stores my games-nothing else.

There may be other solutions, but nothing is truly promised to work. I could look at fixing some possibly broken parts, but that would be a lot of money, not too mention that even if it did work, there would be no promise that it could salvage my data.

I’m still looking at different solutions, I have a friend at home who is an IT expert, and he said he’d more than willing to look at it. But, I’m not putting too much stock on it.

As melodramatic this may sounds (and believe me, I know) losing a few hundred hours of data does suck. I mean, it really sucks.

For Kingdom Hearts 2, I was planning on 100% completing it. This would require defeating more than 13 of really difficult, optional bosses. This includes Sephiroth, Lingering Will, 13 bosses from Organization XIII, and finding all of the treasures, and beating the gummi ship levels.

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I was about a quarter way through this, and I was looking forward to defeating it. But, alas, I’m afraid that dream won’t come true.

As much as I love playing video games, I don’t have much time anymore to actually play through them. Most modern games run about 40+ hours, not to much the 90+ of a lot of RPGs, like Persona 5 Royal, which clocks in at a whopping 120 hours.

Of course, this doesn’t mean I’m going to give up playing video games. With my roommates permission, I’ve been using his ps4, and I’ve been replaying Kingdom Hearts 2. This time, I don’t have any goal to 100% the game, or even beat it. But, I’ve decided that when I have time, I’ll play it.

To be honest, I’ve been enjoying play through it. Of course, I’ve been playing through it on the hardest difficulty: critical, but even then, that have been so much fun!

Maybe one day, if I get my Ps4 fixed, I’ll look at a fresh start. Maybe I’ll pick up Persona 5 again, and try to beat through it. Maybe I’ll restart on Metal Gear Solid 5, or maybe I’ll pick up an entirely new game.

I don’t know, but I’m not too worried about that. There’s a quote I’ve learned to live by:

“All good things must come to an end.”

I think that this is not just through for video games, but just in general for life. Enjoy what you have at the moment, because one day, it will come to an end.

This is not just true for something stupidly small like a console, but for more important things in life, like: pets that pass away, friends that move on from your life, or even the death of a loved one.

My Ps4 served a lot in my life, and I’m happy I got to spend the time with it that I could. Maybe I can revive it back to life, but if I can’t-I’ll still be content with the time I got to spend with it.



Charles Zinn

Writer, reader, and habit maker. I write articles on book reviews, lifestyle, and writing.